Feeling Emotional Warning: Extreamly personal whiny vent TMI

It's a very trying time for me right now. I feel like my nerves are just gonna blow! I wanna cry, scream, and sleep.

 Our TTC journey has led us to finally receiving an actual visits from aunt flow, and a positive OPK. All good things or so I would think. However, I'm left a bit down trodden after what I thought was going to be an uplifting visit to my mid-wife the last week of January 2011. Instead, it felt cold and almost shameful. I came in smiling and was introduced to the nurse in training. After saying hello. I turned toward my midwife and said that I was proud to announce that I had finally had my period.  My mid-wife  seemingly dumbfounded as to why I was even there, was not impressed and it  felt as though she was disinterested in anything I had to say. :(   She first seemed to have my info wrong on her computer and came across angry that I didn't know how certain things worked. For example: My last visit I had thought since she was talking about my body (esp how little lining I had at the time) while I was in the stirrups being examined that these were findings of the moment. Not from an ultra sound over a week before.  She seemed to be put off about my misunderstanding. Honestly, how was I supposed to know. I have not had the training and I only know what the Dr's tell me or what I have read online! She seemed to think I was taking to much time to get pregnant. In my head I hadn't. I mean yes it was an probably still be a  long and arduous task dealing with my anorexia. But, I was proud I mean I worked and fought hard and finally got my visit Dec 2010 and had another one Jan 2011 and I even started to chart. At first she scolded me for not getting my husbands sperm tested. OK, yes we will do that. And gave me grief about the insurance not covering fertility.(the only thing she seemed to really remember)  She said that if our insurance wouldn't pay and we couldn't afford to pay then there is nothing she can do. Payment plans are not an option and her hands are tied at running any test. So, I need to decided if I can afford a child. I felt about as big as a ant and I was just about to be squished. When I went to leave she said have sex and if your not pregnant by April then make an appointment with her and she'll look at my chart to make sure I'm ovulating or having sex at the right time .
      Here I was almost 30 with a husband who has to work two full-time jobs and me a cashier at the local grocery store making min wage at no more then 10 hrs a week and barely the day before notice of my next schedule. My husband and I do without most things, we have never even had cable, we are quite thrifty. We do without a lot and pay our bills.
  We've wanted a family for soo long. We said we'd wait till we were more financially stable. Well, that got trying and we finally came to the conclusion that day may not come or we may be too old! And I'm a basically told that if I don't conceive on my own in the next month or so something is wrong and I can't have a baby!
        Then this month I get a smiley face on my opk (ovulation predictor kit). I squeal with delight and show my hubby who replies "See. you Do work!" I laugh and tell him I think it was cause I was holding my newborn nephew yesterday (Super Bowl Sunday) His sister and her husband had just gave birth to twins. I'm very happy for them but can't help feeling guilty about wanting our own soo bad. When she was preg. I found it pretty painful to be around her especially when I wasn't getting my period. Anyway, we had been B'ding (baby dancing) and continued and even did so the following day. I have been seeming to get all these weird things happening like first my nipples hurt like heck, back pain, bloated, emotional and crying for no reason, I get bouts a nausea that come and go, my sense of smell and taste is crazy (I have even smelled chocolate milk on my hubby's breath and I can't stand spicy foods right now that never bothered me before)  A stranger's cat even came up to me and was rubbing and purring to there owner's surprise who said "Whoa, that's unusual she's never friendly with strangers!" (I don't know if that's anything but it's just one of the weird things that have been happening) I'm now 14 dpo and I woke up around 5 cause I had to go to the bathroom and then went back to bed and woke up at 7:20 and got a temp of 96.58 dip below my cover line of 97.28. My cycle appears to be 37 days. Today would be day 35.  *Turns out my cycle was 34 days this time as AF decided to pay a visit. So, I'm guessing most of those symptoms are over analyzing or my mind is playing tricks on me or maybe my hormones are out of whack.
Last night, my mother-in-law brought up about getting a family photo this weekend of  the 5 generations of mothers and how the church was all a buzz about the twins. I just want to curl up and cry.

I'll wrap this up by saying the basically I'm really feeling dis-heartened at this point. I always thought I'd have a child by the time I'm 30 and now I'm right there March 28th. Everyone in my family has children.  Everyone all my cousins have children and that's the one thing I always wanted.

Every one says "It'll happen don't think about it" Right, that's like saying just ignore the 30 ft pink elephant in the room! It's hard not to want to ask or cry out "When is it our turn?"

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What's wrong with me? Is the midwife right ? Am I crazy? I feel soo horrible about wanting a child while I have new twin niece and nephew.

My apologises for the the length and the whinnies.

                      Wishes from Wonderland

                                                        ~Alice                         

Be my Valentine

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone!!

Today is Valentine's Day and my poor hubby's gotta work

but we will celebrate tomorrow night when he's off :)




Print of vintage Loveland map

 

 Boy, Saturday was busy! First my mother "Fairy Godmother" and I  hosted a lovely tea.

She out did herself this year by making everything herself from the teas with little molded hear sugars, to the soup, scones with cream, sandwiches, cookies, various sweets and my personal favorite the her Queen of Heats Tarts (Yummmers!) I love the fact that we used my grandmother's beautiful old china and mixed it vintage pressed glass plates, short and sweet etched glass goblets for water paired with pink pretty heart shaped tea cups. It was a sweet and  intimate tea with just the K family women.

As soon as I get them downloaded I'll post pictures.

Then that night Nick and I had an invitation for dinner and games sister C and her family (yes, the twins too) For dinner and games. C's husband clunked out at the begining of a game of pictionary and C almost won just by the all plays alone lol.  I got to hold A+ again and feed him.

So to sum it up. We laughed, we ate too much (painfully so,never eating meals like that so close together) we had fun!

Hope  your Valentine's Day is A Sweet one!

Wishes from Wonderland

~ Alice

Sunshine 70s wall

 * Real quick TTC update: Finally got a smiley postive Opk on the 7th and I've been walking on Sunshine since!*

"Now back to our regularly scheduled blog program"
    I've been messing around with photos and trying to create something for our "that 70s living room" wall. Since our it's the most awsome shade of orange I'm thinking of framing old family photos and messing with a few newer ones to make them look vintage. We are planning on also adding vintage elements to the wall. We finally got around to scrubbing out an old owl palnter and now he makes such a cute remote caddy. (that's right you heard me OWL. Yes, I know yet another owl but I'm happy to report that we are limiting ourselves on them.)  I'm also toying with the idea of making some art but idk yet.

I'm leaning torward this first one of giggle-belly (my neice)

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                                                Wishes from Wonderland
                                                    ~ Alice

Happiness is a new baby...or Two



It's a brand new year and a year of firsts!



Case in point: The Twins.

After a long awaited arrival (I mean we all seriously thought we were gonna end up at the hospital Christmas Day!) the F twins

which, shall now be known on here as A (girl) and  A+ (boy) have arrived.  My beautiful sis-in-law C and her husband welcomed the pair January 26, 2011 at 12:35 am.  It seems surreal that the little ones are now here. As much as we would have liked to, Nick and I decided against going to the hospital. We figured that C would  be exhausted and needed her rest. She was there since the following morning after all. And since the weather and Nick's hours weren't really cooperating it seemed more logical to just wait till they got home. So, on Saturday we got to meet the pair for the first time! We got to hold them and Nick even got to feed A. It was quite an enjoyable evening. They are just soo small. All their clothes and hats were just too darn big!  A+ started to fuss a bit and I sang him to sleep. Just like I did with Giggle-Belly eight years prior. We were also treated to a tour of the nursery my talented mother-in-law hand painted a jungle featuring a monkey,giraffe,owl in a tree and even had sparkly butterflies and bumble bees fluttering around the wall. I apologise for no pictures of this since we uhh.. I mean I forgot our camera. (I still can't believe I left the Flip at my parents.) The babies were teeny, tiny and sweet as can be. We are looking forward to being a part of their lives as they grow. 

*Update on our TTC Journey: After a vacation nightmare at Disney World (No, I'm not gonna get into that now. Let's just say it was a very Un-Disney experience and will take some coaxing to really go back) I woke up to find that that my missing Aunt had arrived. This is the first time she's visited in over a year now. Must have been that I was distracted and couldn't count the calories not to mention having Hot Chocolate and other foods I haven't eaten in a long, long time. It seems silly to get excited about receiving AF but, considering that this is a sign from my body saying I'm healthier and we can now proceed with *Hope* I finally have a cycle again. I will start charting and might even pick up a BBT (Basal Body thermometer)

We'll be Wishing, Hoping and Praying that 2011 is our year!

Wishes from Wonderland

~ Alice

Monday's Mood : Mocha

  For Monday's Mood I'm choosing Mocha. Pretty much because the only coffee I've been drinking has been decaf. I'm missing the chocolate and oooh caramel or maybe peanut butter and now I'm thinking of ice cream. Figures!

 Warning: Personal Post

The past week has been rough. Travel on the road for answers has been very bumpy since I found out our insurance doesn't cover fertility. I've googled myself out! I've since seen my Dr.  I was dreading the scale. I know I've gained weight and this has been extremely hard for me to watch the scale climb higher. (I started to remove my shoes when I was starting to loose weight. It's become a habit now) But there I was again watching it climb and hit 111 lbs. I squeezed my eyes tight and shook my head. Thankfully, I was quickly interrupted by the nurse who sent me to the last room so she could take my temp etc. Then came in Dr. F  who I explained my plight to. He told me that my left ovary (the one the hurts) is a bit larger then the right. He doubts it's  PCOS since it's usually the case with over weight womenn.  He immediately put a call into the fertility center to find out what we can do. I could hear the message on the speaker. "We are in a lunch meeting" it touted. He left a message for them to call him and even gave his cell number. He promised he'd call me as soon as her heard back. He examined me and attempted to reassure me. When I got home I heated up my cup of decaf, climbed the stairs and sat my phone next to me on the bed. Turned on the monitor and waited for it to boot up. I was nodding off in front of the screen (did I mentioned I haven't been able to sleep either) and BUzzz my phone went off.  It was a number I didn't recognise. "Hello?" I stuttered.  On came a familar friendly voice. It was  Dr. F he had told me " I think I have great news for you!" apparently he had discussed my situation with a nurse at the center. " She mentioned some anorexic patients don't get their period back for years until they achieve their ideal weight." Years! I thought. "I told her great! My  patients will love being told to eat!" "Yeah, I started to joke all except the anorexic ones" meaning me. " I'm gonna say make your goal 125-130. If you get your period before 125 give me a call." I grabbed a pen and my trusty note pad and wrote "125-130- Ideal" down. I took a deep breath. "Hoo boy, here we go" I thought. Then he suggested I meet with his wife who worked with woman on a diet plan. She could tell me what foods to eat and what not to eat. "I would love that." I said. So tomorrow at 10 am sharp I'm meeting with her. I'm hoping this really helps. 

   Cut to:  Sunday Oct 17th. Hubs and I are wrapping  his sister C's baby shower gift. (Oh, did I mention her shower was Sunday and here I am a wreck! Still, I was determined to make an appearance. I wanted C to know that I loved her and was happy for her and her husband.) I was doing fine until I got to the onesies. I must have folded them six times trying to get them just wright and wrapped in the tissue paper. They were so perfectly soft a green one for the boy with "What does the cow say?" written on the front. On the back was the answer "Moo Moo" in a little cloud. The Pink one for the girl "What does the cat say?" " Purr Purr" on the back. I manged to wrap both little monkey suits and the hats but once I got to the onsies I started to shake. I could tell Nick noticed this since he scooted across the floor to take the little clothes from me and hold me. I curled up on his lap and cried into his shoulder. 

 When we arrived at C and T's house. The party was in full swing. Their house is quite cute. We made our way past the monkey face cupcake and  the pink and blue decorations on our way into the living room. It was gift opening time and there was C sitting there with her  bump. I wanted to hand her the gift and give her a hug but I couldn't seem to find a path through all the sea chairs and cameras. I decided it best to stay back and not draw any attention. I handed our bag to be passed up to her and waited for her to get to open it. I leaned my head on Nick's shoulder and he kissed it gently to comfort me. C opened what seemed bag after endless bag of clothes, stuffed animals, baby gear etc.. Then she was handed ours. "Phew" I thought. Somehow, I wanted to see her reaction to our gift esp. those onsies. I don't remember how but when dinner was announced I made my way thrugh the crowd and hugs C. "We have to go I said just wanted to give you a hug and tell you we love you" she thanked me and said she was glad I showed up.   Nick and I left and made our way out past the crowd in the kitchen. As we started to walk away my limbs where feeling heavy and I about collapsed into Nick sobbing. When we got into the car I said " I wanna just go home." But we couldn't go home. We had a ton of junk in mom and dad's garage and it really needed to be relocated to the apartment.  We loaded up the van and headed to our apartment. Nick unloaded most while I cleared out under the stairs. Then we took the last two trips together. After  we got home after dropping off the van I started to cry. Nick looked down and found me having opened a little silver box. In this box was a little winter outfit I picked up years ago. It was old fashioned and had a knitted bonnet and two pairs of socks. " I bbbought this when ..." I started to stutter. Nick softly simply said " I know" He walked me over to the couch and we sat down. I leaned into him and he put his arm around me then stroked my face as the tears streamed down. " I love you" he said then he kissed me on the forehead. 

 I'm starting to shake again. I was relocating our "children's library" to the office today and shelve all those wonderful books. I've had a bowl of cheerios a few apple slices and an individual bag of orveils light kettle corn (my newest addiction).  At first I didn't like it but now I find I actually do. Sometimes with me I've found that I program myself that I won't like something so I don't eat it. Tonight Nick will be "surprising" me with dinner.
(Surprising is when I don't know what it will be so I can't doubt my decision and change my mind umpteen times. I have a hard time with this thanks to the mess I got myself into last year when I started counting calories. I tend to deny what I want or put it off till It's too late to get it)  Nick's wonderful idea of "surprising" me allows me some freedom in away. I can't explain it but for me it's a comforting thing. I can't wait to hug him when he gets home.  So, I'm headed down stairs to put in the final disc of season 1 Ghost Whisper and wait for his call.


                                            Wishes from Wonderland
                                           ~ Alice

Whimisical Wednesday : Featuring Maggie's Mice : Spotlight on Mouseshouses

 Spotlight on MousesHouses


   I love it when I run across cleaver and cute totally imaginative things like this.

I've decided that I needed to shine the spotlight on my most recent blog love.

If you enjoyed the little mouse scenes from Dinner w/ the Schmucks like the Hubs and I did then you should like the following blog as well. MousesHouses is the clever and cute creation of Maggie Rudy who is a very talented feltist and miniaturist. In her blog she has posted mouse scenes that are completely believable everything is made to the form mouse size. Best of all she makes the mice with felt. I constantly amazed what these felters can do.  What a talented lady. Her style reminds me sort of the old Paddington bear stop animation. It's lovely, charming and I even go so far to say has heart. That old fashioned feel that is warm and fuzzy. Know what I mean?  Congratulations to Maggie on her book that will be published March 2011! Well felt and well deserved! (yes, bad pun I know.)

 

Paddington Bear 

Wishes from Wonderland

~Alice

Yabba Dabba Doo!

Yabba.. Dabbba.. Doo...!

  I just went to google something and got majorly sidetracked when I saw this at the top of the search page. Come on, you knew I had to take a closer look. Well….whadya know? Turns out the Flintstones debuted fifty years ago today. Somehow, I almost missed this one? Did you?

Since as far back as I can remember the Flintstones have been one of my all time favorite cartoons.

They hark en back to a simpler time. I loved when we would go to breakfast at Denny’s with my grandparents and there to greet me was that fun paper kids menu with the modern stone- age family. (Boy, it would be nice If Denny’s would bring ‘em back) As an 80s/90s kid who remembers delighting in watching the old Fruity Pebbles commercials and Flintstones Cartoons playing on my Grandparents large 13” TV with the rabbit ears up.. Back then I used to think how cool it was that my grandfather had the same name as Barney Rubble! His name is actually Bernie not Barney but when your five it’s all the same hahaha . Even today, I still check for The Jetsons meet the Flintstones in every pile of VHS tapes I run across.Technically, I believe it’s mom and dad who I have to thank introducing me to the town of Bedrock. Personally, I feel the Flintstones is one of those hand me down classic cartoon characters. They are intergenerational. They are able to be enjoyed on two levels. The first and probably the most obvious is the kid level. The second is the adult level. As, there are various situations and jokes that an adult can pick up on where most likely a child won’t.  So, many great cartoons worked on these levels back in the day and unfortunately, they aren’t found too much in modern children's television anymore. These were characters/shows that had charm! They just put a smile on my face and clearly my mom’s as well (she has the awesomest juice glasses to prove it.) I always found the prehistoric invention critters intriguing.   Pebbles is probably my favorite (I have the t-shirt and pencil to prove it.) Most my favorite episodes where after she was born. Dino is a very close second. I remeber sitting at our kitchen table waiting to see which cheweable bedrock buddy mom would give me out of the flinstones vitamin jar. I tend to get excited when I run across  the older versions of hanna barbera illustrations.  Ahh, retro-Americana nostalgia at it’s best! Since I now and will at least for the rest of the day have the theme song playing in my head. Well, that and the image of Fred and Barney ridding that stone piano down the street singing the “Happy Anniversary” song. So,  I’ll  finish this up with a great big
"Yabba.. Dabba.. Dooo...!"

       

        Wishes from Wonderland

                        ~ Alice

 

Family Fun Friday: Owl Love

 "Legends is lovely"  

 

     So, after a short discussion, the Hubs and I decided to see Legends of The Guardians: The Owls of Ga Hool.  I've had a sort of owl obsession lately. It's funny, I had no intention or even remote interest in them. We have a retro woodland theme going on in the upstairs bath. Prints of woodland creatures washing reside on our walls. It all started when we found a set of the cutest vintage decoupaged family of owls wooden prints. Then I picked up this nice yellow 3/4 sleeve hoodie that just so happened to have an owl print on the inside. The next thing I knew we had these cool Orange and Brown Owl salt and pepper shakers sitting on our coffee table. The latest owl migration is the Legends Of  Guardians poster Nick brought home the other day. It's a really neat looking poster. We have a large wall above our stairway and movie posters fill that space nicely.  Anyways, back to the movie.

    How was it? Well it was reminiscent of  Lord of the Rings and the first Harry Potter and even a bit Robin Hood. In both content and visuals.  However the story wasn't nearly as dark or deep as those. We enjoyed it very much. It's a simple story with lovely animation. It has a charm to it. We honestly went in having no expectations or this movie and I think that's why we enjoyed it. Having sat through the incredibly long butt numbing Avatar movie and Happy Feet. Personally, we were relived that it didn't change into a whole different movie 3/4 the way through. It was nice to have this charming, simple kids movie. So, I'm not gonna say it's incredible or ground breaking. It isn't and please don't expect it to be. Sure the story line is predictable but that doesn't mean it's not good.  I particularly liked  Ezylryb who is voiced by Geoffrey Rush. He reminds me of Archimedes from Sword in the Stone. I also enjoyed Digger who at times reminded me of Gopher and Twilight who seemed to follow Owl from Winnie the Pooh at times

   I'd give it 7 out of ten. Legends is lovely, go see it if your in the mood for a simply enjoyable family friendly film.

                                             Wishes from Wonderland

                                                ~ Alice

                                  

Spoonophilia?

  Be afraid be very afraid.
This is a post is pointless and dedicated to my weird obsession with using a spoon.

 The other day I telling my husband that I have come to the conclusion I'm a Spoonophile.
He just nodded his head and listened attentively.

I love Ice Cream. In fact I'm an Ice Cream fiend!
I like cereal. At the moment I'm addicted to Cheerios
I like pudding. Chocolate please
I like yogurt and can crave Strawberry.
I like apple sauce.
I like most soup. As long as it's not watery. Yuck!
I like hot cocoa and have been known to try and spoon it when it's to hot. (when I was little I'd stick a spoon in my strawberry or chocolate milk to "Stir" it but I would always mange to get a few slurps off the spoon first.
What do all these things have in common?

You can eat most with a
    Spoon
Yup, I think I figured it out. I'm a spoonophile. That's why I like all those things.
Case in point. When everyone else grabs a fork to eat their pie ala mode I grab a spoon. In any case if there is ice cream and spoon handy I'll take the spoon. Eating ice cream with a fork is just wrong. Wrong, I say!
When I was little I really liked getting a sample of ice cream at Baskin Robbins before I made my choice. I think it was that little pink spoon. The long handled spoon you get with a milkshake or iced tea is one of my favs.
Remember the spork? I liked them when they'd make they're way onto my cafeteria tray as a kid.

 I don't mind forks. Unless, the prongs are too sharp,long or bent (ouch, I really hate when they are all going different directions)

 So yes, I must have Spoonophilia or something.
Then, my attentive husband said matter of factly "That's all true but consider this. Don't you always ask fork for your mac n cheese at Sheetz?"

 Thud! Crud! He's right!   Whoosh! there goes my theory right down the drain.
       
Are you a Spoonophile?

       Odd enough post?

                                                   Wishes from Wonderland
                                                        ~Alice

Monday's Mood: Cupcakes and Coffee

  Monday's Mood color is Toffee. Why is that? A number of reasons. As, you pretty well know. I'm really embracing fall right now. Tonight, I was on a excursion with my mother looking for black pants for work. Pretty simple task no? Nope, more like impossible to find the right fit. Too baggy or to tight. So, here I am feeling a bit like Goldilocks. Oh, well, it's time to take a break.  Hello Starbucks my old friend!  Haven't seen you in a while. What's new? Ooh, many people know of Starbucks fall staple the Pumpkin Spice Latte. I looked up at the sign and  the words "Toffee Mocha"  seemed to be glowing and well, I decided that mom needed to try this special coffee. I have admit, it even intrigued me so I asked permission for a sip. I wasn't expecting much but when I took my first sip. Yummers! Cue the choir "ahhh". Yes, Toffee Mocha is a delightfully delicious flavor. It is my humble opinion that it is simply perfect for fall.

 Before this I was thirsty and mom a bit peckish so we head to the Chik Fil A.  We all know their hot fresh chicken is the best. No brain er really. But what I'm loving is the kids meal toys.  Something I've been on my soapbox about for a while now is how cheap they have been as of late. So you can imagine my surprise and delight to see that Chick Fil A was giving out nice little children's books from the Laura Numeroff series. I pulled open the plastic and what was revealed was a decent sized little book. I opened it up expecting cheap pages and majorly cut down artwork. But there wasn't any. The pages weren't magazine like but real paper! We received "If you give a cat a cupcake"   I mean, finally, a kids meal toy to rival the days of when we would get cool stuff (IE 80s/early 90s) You know the days when you'd get real Lego's and my personal favorite trick or treat buckets your meal came in.
*Sigh* I'm soo glad to see this please keep up the good work Chik Fil A! Fyi: They also have board books for the under three crowd. :)

 Another trend I'm happy with is that just about at all kiddie meal places you have the fruit option. Wendy's has it mandarin oranges, Chick Fil A has a fruit cup (not sure this is as healthy as the rest but it's certainly better then the fries)McDonalds has apple slices, Burger King has apples as well.
You are able to substitute milk or juice as well. I'm not always successful at getting munchkin my niece to get the fruit when fries are available. But I've been successful in replacing her usual request for "brown soda" with apple juice. So, for this I'm happy. Now, if McDonald's would just bring back those great pumpkin buckets. lol

                                                           Wishes from Wonderland

                                                          ~ Alice

Introducing Celebration Saturday

 It's Celebration Saturday  and I can't think of a more perfect way to start it off then by talking about my Mom's Business. Especially, considering her van is on it's way to create a Fancy Nancy Soiree for some lucky little girl.

 First off Meet my Mother Marietta

 She is the owner of http://www.fairygodmotherandco.com/

Her company specialises in the most  heartfelt and charming events. She's got an awesome talent for baking, telling stories,crafting and all around entertaining!  She's a mom, grandmother, and my best friend. Being a Mary Poppins of sorts. The events she does is mostly for children. She is well known for her "Manners Please Girl Scout Teas" and "Mommy and Me Teas" here in Central PA.  Although, they have done and can do bridal, baby showers and small weddings. Infact she and dad were a huge help to Nick and I with our wedding. Actually, if you are in need any celebration they are the one to call. Indeed , she is "Fairy Godmother"

 

I do a lot of the design and idea aspect for the business and I really enjoy it.  But, it's mom who really shines. I mean it! I've seen her in action and she just simply "Sparkles" 

Her and Dad "Run the show" so to speak.  They are two of the most dedicated and compassionate individuals. They often add "little extras" that don't normally come with the packages "just because" they want to make the event extra special for the person.  

 Practically everything used for an FGM&CO event has been augmented somehow. Very little hasn't been handmade or modified. The parties them self have a homespun feel and are never cookie cutter. Maybe, this is why they often get asked for the same party the following year.

  Let me give you a glimpse of the type of things they did while when my brother and I were growing up.

  Starting with our homemade Halloween costumes. It began with my brother Mark's  first little angel one (make-shifted from mom's slip from Christmas garland and a coat hanger to his ingenious  McDonalds French Fries costume. I remember the four of us carrying all that foam home lol. . She always used to sew my dresses when I was little (pure talent I tell you. We still have a few of my favorites. And She made my niece's Alice flower girl dress based off of my childhood pink dress) And Her Fairy Godmother dress is a favorite of mine.

Birthday cakes were the best!  They where made with love just as her party cakes are made today. Mom made R2D2 and Kermit the frog for my brother before there was even a Wilton version.

I remember to this day all my cakes and even how they tasted. There were very few years we bought my cake I think maybe 2 of them were from the store. Her pirate cupcakes are definitely a favorite of mine. Jeez Louise! mom even made the edible map. Whoa!

We always were involved in some sort of activity or show at the Music and Theatre workshop. Mom, Mark and I were often in the cast (I was always grabbed to walk on set. Not sure why, but they always used to ask me to come on set when they needed a little girl who would take direction. I loved this. lol)

Mom, Mark and I would sing,dance,act. Dad wouldn't sing but he would act, work the technical aspect and do voice work.

Mom was even in the touring troupe of the Bollin Sisters (Linda Clay, Oh shoot I forget her name, and Marietta) They were often asked to preform as their characters from Annie. These ladies were oh so cute as the Blonde,Brunette,and Redheaded sisters. I even remember their Christmas Show

 Holidays with the family rocked my socks!

 Even when they would come up with something last minute. It still rocked!

This post is turning into "Extreme Memories Family Edition" so I'll just wrap it up by saying they rocked one last time.

Mom, also has years of experience in working with and teaching children.

Another thing about them is that they  are quite humble about their talents.  I'm not saying they aren't proud of their work. I'm just saying they don't boast or brag.  Maybe that's the reason they are blessed with them?  

In case you recognised the name. Fairy Godmother & Coterie were one of the featured finalist in the Ford Connect with Connect contest.

The pictures are all from various FGM&CO parties and events. If you would like hear or see more please feel free to contact me.

Or if you want more info you can contact them at either http://www.fairygodmotherandco.com/ or 717-292-7465

If you do and mention my blog post don't be suprised if they are shocked to hear this. As, they have no clue I'm posting this. Hmm.. maybe I should give them a call after the party.

Well, that's enough rabbit hole jumping for today!

                                                           Wishes from Wonderland

         ~ Alice 

Celebration Saturday seems like Sad Saturday

 Warning: This post is very personal. It contains my mind's trappings and long incoherent ramblings!

              Today, we were supposed to go with my husband's family to Knobels for some good old fashioned fun. One of the reasons that didn't pan out is because I have Nick my sweet snoring husband SOTC (sick on the couch). Poor, guy.

Another, is I haven't been feeling so good myself. A tickle in my throat that started the other night (I heart ricola honey lemon), and the strange pain in my lower abdomen that began a few weeks back. Since the through ultra sound in which they got to get up close and personal with  the lightsaber errr... I mean probe showed everything to be fine.( It's clearly not since sometimes this pain lands  me on my knees.)  I now have a appointment on the 23rd with  GI Joe (Gastrointestinal specialist).  Which, coincidentally is when my father is having surgery to remove his gull bladder. It's not the removal of his gull bladder that upsets me. It's what they might find. See, my dad needs a kidney and if they find any form of cancer in his gull bladder he will not be permitted to have one. He's my hero and an amazing man. I pray everything goes well. I'm also awaiting a very important call. Looks like I'll be calling them Monday as suggested by my midwife.

Hmm is this  getting extremely jumbled and confusing you?
Allow me to try and bring you up to speed. Nick and I are decided to have a baby. However, we have run into an issue. Due to the fact that I have had no cycle for almost a year now and that I went into an anorexic spin after experiencing a tragic event (it was horrible, and left me feeling like I had no control that's all you need to know.) I'm told that the lack of fat may play into the fact that I'm not ovulating but it has nothing to do with what I eat. My lowest weight was 93-94 lbs. I was weighed the other week and came in at around 104 now. (The all ice cream lunch and fast food dinner my family Dr prescribed wasn't really building till I added in the cheerios and apple snack. Go figure?) My father's condition combined with the waiting for a call (all week) from the Fertility Specialist's Center has left my mascara running. I can't seem to stop crying. I know I should be happy that I'm being referred but it still hurts and everywhere I look I see children and babies and families. *Sigh* It's frustrating when you see family all around and pregnant women who weren't even trying to get pregnant. Even, Nick's sister C is pregnant with twins. Don't get me wrong, I love her and very happy for her. I wish only the best for her family of little monkeys (monkeys is what she calls them).

      So, my vision is obstructed by bellies and babies. It would seem that even the pee stick (Ovulation test) has taken to mocking me. I've waited soo long for the smiley face to greet me only to see the dreaded goose egg.  I had completed a round of Provera about a week or so ago. This was prescribed it to kick start my cycle. However, nothing is happening. Felicia, my midwife has explained that my lining is too thin and there is no sign of it building. In other words it's not making a nest. So I have an empty nest syndrome of sorts? yes, I'm aware of my badly placed humor (hey, it's how I deal).

The next day I told a coworker about my news.  She kept asking me about my kids so I explained my situation. The she said and I quote "don't feel bad that you can't have children. I wish I would have thought more about having them. They grow up and rebel. And I feel sorry for all the babies in this world it's horrible! Just get a pet. They'll love you no matter what."
What??? Yeah, we'll get a puppy and then we won't want children anymore! Pfft! You got to be kidding me with this.

On top of this everyone keeps asking if I'm Pregnant.
I like my job I have no problem with being a cashier. I take pride in my work. I'm a friendly person. I genuine and care for people. Sure, it's often crazy there, the hours are horrible and you find out your schedule last minute. Yes, the encounters can be nerve racking but I keep it all in perspective and I'm overall very positive about it. I smile and see who smiles back. I do my best to be through,quick, and efficient. And I'm told I'm good at it. However, when you work at the G-store you see a lot of families,children,babies,belly's and baby food etc... *sigh* esp. when the people have no idea just how blessed they are.
 
  Feeling Bluer then Blue and craving Ice Cream like mad or maybe just a really good thick strawberry or chocolate shake (yeah, I know it's still ice cream. I'm not sure if my craving is cause it's part of my diet or the sadness or what) Any recommendations for one? Denny's, Hardee's,Chik fil A? Please let me know if you do since I seriously, want a tasty one.

 OK, well that wraps up my pitiful pearl post. Sorry!
                                                       

                                                          Wishes from Wonderland

       ~ Alice

Monday's Mood

Monday's Mood Color is Orange

  Maybe it's in anticipation of fall but right now I'm on a brown and orange kick. I'm feeling restless but I'm sticking with the orange.

Cute Ad

Happy dance!

                                           Wishes from Wonderland
                                               ~ Alice

Smiling Sunday: Happy Grandparents Day!

Happy Grandparents Day!

Since today is National Grandparents Day and Smiling Sunday.

I thouht perhaps I should share something. Just the other day I got into their car and it smelled just like it did when I was little. It's the same as the their house has. It's a happy scent. I was transported back through time and had thoughts of Holidays, Pancake Breakfast, Whiffle Ball games, Porch sits with them, this, put a smile upon my face. I leaned over and touched the afghan next to me. Yup, still felt the same. As I left the car I kissed my grandmothers cheek and told her thanks and that I loved them (as I always do). It was soft as always. Then, something came over me. I found my self blurting out "See ya later alligator!" This was something that made my grandfather chuckle and smile. For, he always use to shout this to me and of course, I'd reply "After while crocodile!"  His humor makes me laugh. Sure, it's corny as heck. Sure, it's predictable. But, maybe that's why I love it? It's purely him and hark ens back to a simpler time. Lately, my father has picked it up. I roll my eyes as he tells the waitress seating us that we need a table for 15 but inside I secretly kind of like it.

It's Sunday and that's what makes me smile.
Take a moment to share something about your grandparents today.



Wishes from Wonderland
~Alice

Five Years

My apologies for not putting up new post. I haven't been feeling very well lately. Today, I just had to post. No matter what because......

Five years ago today I married Nick. He is my home and the man of my heart. He knows and treats me like no other. Just the thought of him makes me happy and puts a smile upon my face. There are times that I just ache to see him as a dad (and of course me as a mom).

 Unfortunately, he has to work all day today. However, we will be celebrating tomorrow after we get off work.  Happy Anniversary Babe! I love you with my whole heart!



                                                      Wishes From Wonderland
                                                       ~Alice

Monday's Mood! Back to School made cool part duex

Monday's Mood

   I've decided that I will select a color every Monday to describe my mood.

The first is Blue :

    I’ve been feeling a bit listless. So I found a image that made me smile.

 It’s honest, sincere and simple.

 It can be found in this a playroom. It's a great quote by Dr. Seuss above a beautiful window written in a lovely script. How charming is that?

Now for something cheery so it's Back to School made cool part duex

I've rounded up some good back to school finds for you.

First up is Martha Stewart's whimsical stickers and bookplates. What fun to use these to decorate those brown paper bags you covered all those books in.

There's also magnetic calander for planning your childs lunches here.

babalisme has got some cute labels as well.

classic play is featuring some adorable mini menus to tuck in your child's lunch. Jennifer's daughter says  “It feels like I’m in a fancy restaurant!”

  Are you ready for back to school?

                      Wishes from Wonderland

                                              ~ Alice